abit bored....so here is the consequences....

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


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smo! im the same as u! :p

me, "want to go play pool?"
wt, "where?"
me, "orchard?"
wt, "huh?"
me, "orhcard la...other places oso can la"
wt, "orchard? orchard painful?"

so here itis...
hahaha.....
aint that funny now...but, it still triggers off a volley of laughter.. :)
went out with class....
found out tt minghui oso failed eng. got 12 pts with eng D7. also, kelvin, 13 pts with D7 for eng...
sad case...
sigh....
but they still can make it for sajc!
dunno..
bought gareth gates' album out of implusiveness.....
the first few songs are worth the money la...the last half songs of the album aint that nice.
anyway, went with wanwei, kaichun and kelvin....met at the orchard mrt station, walked to bk at liat towers
then went to lido for movie....
dunno y, lido is veri smoky today....
watched honey. great dance moves....
left them at 5 after the movie, for pek kio cc to play bball.
meryl wt!
i have a tendency to be hyper when i see u peeps. seems as if we havent seen each other for ages. itis just the same mindset that makes me think that i havent been to orchard for ages*but ive been practically there everyday...*

hope to go to meryl's hse tml.
play piano, and also teach her guitar....
lol...
end here...
im getting fat! =x
gain 6 to 7 kg since the dec hols....
that is the "dis-incentive" of going to sajc....get real fat! :
sigh....
at the crossroads now, though the way is veri obvious.
i shld go njc, for the benefit of my career propects ....
but i like certain stuff bout sajc. the ccas that i signed up, love them.
the assembly every fri.
the short prayer every morn.
the slow pace in terms of teaching and walking.
the amicable ms ho.
the proximity to deserted harbourfront and sentosa.
the food....
the anticipation of being able to wear the nice uni.
some of the peeps there....

wt say tt a retired tcher of njc says tt my score allows me to assure a place in njc.
im still not confident of tt...
sighx....
been going round and round, back to this jae(or isit pae) topice again....
dun think im statisfied with my results, but i know i deserves must lousier.
dunno.havent learnt the skill of appreciating what i already have.

am stuffed with food again....mum always dump food in front of me!

did not disappoint my mum.
was in such tremendous fear of nt meeting the high hopes of pple that i had to write a diary in sch....
sigh...
the chapel we had in the morn realli helped me lots....
the thing bout peace....
a king was to chose a painting out of two, where the first is of a a still, stagnant lake.
the second was a waterfall with water gushing out, but, there was this bird whose nest was in a bush behind the waterfall. it is calm, its heart, mind and soul is peaceful. this peace is what one wants. one of a peaceful state of mind in a calamity, disaster.

another story is about an incident that started out in the sea. there was this woman in this ship, and there was this predicament out in the sea, either there was a thunderstorm or it was a wadeva disaster la, then the whole crew was in panick, only she. she told stories in the bible and calmed the passengers on board....
finally, the reached uk safely. the ship captain then asked her why was she not afraid at all.
She said sth like, there is one daughter in uk, and the other is up there. in either two endings*die in the sea or reach uk*, she will see one of them within hours.

im lousy at narrating, but the pastor was realli good at it.....

anyway...
9 pple turned up in my class for sch, including me.
lol....
initially, only me and yi dian were determined to come for sch....
lol
cheryl o's class was the most pathetic, onli 3 including her!
anyway....slakc alot today
civics, got ms ho to play piano.
she played one of the sammi's song...then she played jay's songs...
i realli like her to be my tcher, one who makes us all rounded. she is one of my reasons which keeps me back in sajc.
then wei ye provided us with some music entertainment....
then we strolled down for D22 for chem tut....
had a casual talk with her. did no serious work. can see that she is veri real, veri honest, veri frank, veri kind. she wouldnt lie. but pple bully her! they see her being so soft tempered, and they talk back at her, they do not do her hmwk, they labelled her as incompetent as asinine in a mild form....sigh...
then we had chem lecture..
where onli me, yi dian and max went for it.
audi was onli bout half filled when itis usually full....
sat with germ and cheryl o....it was a double period lecture. walked out of the lecture halfway, cuz it was too boring..
lol...
the tcher didnt notice cuz we scooted off when they were playing a video....or rather, it was a movie....
was onli bout 11 when we came out...btw, cheryl o's leg was realli swollen!!
lol...

---bro just msged me back....he supported me to apply for njc---
am confused....but i'll be the intruder, i ll haf lil possibility to be in teh sch team. and i might even get in!!! im the borderline ones!! but if i get in, i'll join squash! indoors mahx :)

anyway...after the escape from lecture, went to cafe for lunch...
ate mee goreng.didnt haf the appetite...lol...but i still finished the whole plate!!
lol....
finally went back to sc at 12.10, the earliest time tt we can leave sajc....
reach sc within an hour's time..
walked arnd the classrooms....
saw ms ma.....she scared us!! she told us tt we did badly! but she said tt with a smile, which left us in a torturing suspense which worsened the situation!!left all us in consternation and trepidation.
went to p block 3rd level. saw mrs lee sc. asked her bout our maths. she was rather disappointed that we became the 4th class in ranking. which is bout 1.09 as msg-mean subj grade-.lol...but she said that ms ma was veri happy when she saw our grades.this is so contrasting from what ms ma said! left us in truama.....such contradicting. i believed in the worse. rather not disappoint myself.
met ms ma again along the corridor. was forced to walk in single file, and me walking beside her. and she was trying to hold a conservation with her. i realli cant talk to her! reminds me of oral. made my words stumble. made me stutter.

finally the time has come. congregated in the hall by 2.30
recieved my results at bout 3.10.
and when i recieved the 2 flimsy pieces of paper from ms ma, she gave me THAT SMILE!! those tt incite guilt in you, those that say tt uve done badly, those that she gave that seems so threatening when i failed my lit once again.
the words on the slip bombarded me with words that seem greek to me.
saw 2 five letter words and 6 one letter word.no idea wad was my l1r5, no idea at all.none at all.
was frantically looking for help.
sigh....

---just saw the replied smses....--
the one from my bro is more impt....he said tt he'll reward me with something of the budget between 300-500 if i score straight A1s for science and maths....
and i realli did! :)
i made a similar promise to him too.
i realli hope he does well.
does matter if i spend all my savings on a present for him if he does well.
:)

is great tt my results came as a belated bdae present for my mum :)

neway, went out after sch today.
did alot of slacking around, and trained wt and others to walk at the sajc pace...super duper slow..
lol..
had alot of fun looking at the baby products in john little..
lol...
think today is the day where most smses came in and most smses sent....
bout 70 smses came in today, and ive sent bout 50 nia?
lol.....this is crazy!!!
lol....

meryl came to my hse just now....

nuthing much to say...
but am realli in a fix, though the path is clear, which is to go njc.
mum says that njc has a good environment, conducive for studying and the pple there are from better financial and physical background than pple in njc.mum even told me nt to put sajc as the second choice, but acjc as the second, cuz it has better reputation which is backed up by the words of everyone in my family.
bro said"Go la! can!Go apply la..." obvious that he give full support for njc.

am glad that mum said that pap is statisfied with my results. sis's hubby is surprised by mine, where his cousin onli fared 10. and sis, i tied with her o lvl score!! yeah, great achievement! im suppose to be inferior in terms of our brains when compared to her....but apparently, she scored the exact same results as me! but, dun think she took combined humanities at that time. okay, im not a dumb ass-hole....

sigh...seems like someone isnt going to ask for my results....lol...doesnt realli matter

still wondering --just put down the fone call from hj.....funny sia......suddenly heard echos of "lights out" ....hahaha.....seems so fun in there!--
so, wad was i wondering?
sighx....
end here....
hope that everyone accepts the paths in front of them, strive for the best in their present state, all the best!

taking a second look at my bro's fresh water fishes....
i rmmbered bout a dream i had few days ago....
all the fish was dead!
tummies up, bloated, swollen, like an ice cube, half-submerged..
i got real panicky....
sighx.....

isit an omen?

class peeps discussing whether to pon sch anot....wont be able to call them my classmates, without any prefix, anymore-soon-.

a year ago.
the hcl results were released too.
most evinced frown face flushed red, tears welling, wetted their eyes, rolled down the cheeks....
couldnt drown me at tt time, but it is getting suffocating now....
i still can rmmber them saying stuff, or rather, some were joking that, what we would be like when we get back a flimsy piece of precious paper, or junk, with 8 or 9 grades on it that can incite emtions and induce many expressions.
now u see how powerful alphabets and numerals can be.
and they said, but it wldnt be that bad, cuz we are getting all of it at one go, so we cant be saddened repeatedly....
is it true? when i have to report my grades to so many pple....
onli can rmmber 7 of the many who requested for my grades...
they may be concerned. but ... do they realli care?

my mum, care about whether her investment was correct. sorry, this may sound rather crude, but itis the undeniable partial truth of it....

ms ho from tuition, just to satisfy her "inquisitiveness", and to cumulate the interesting stories that she can share during the classes

ms ho from ct, perhaps she is realli sincere bout this. she is smart, she can be cunning, euphemism is easy for her. disguising the real motive is easy. me being ignorant is easy. do realli hope she is realli concerned.

and friends, acquaintances, just to perform some kind of relation that is inconsistent and fragile where theres lil effort of maintenance*reminds me of thengs....the fun we had....over "wasp" and "wasps", pronounciation of "pronounciation" which is pronounced as pro-nun-c-a-tion. and "abdomen", "aborigines", "vehicle" and many....*

and for my bro...did he ask me to sms him? ive forgotten. he too, is just performing the human instincts, to show care, to boast if he can, to exult if i can tolerate, to hear my complaints *but he is onli coming back on sat... :(* if it overspills, to be there as the resistance barrier.

in the past, i realli do giggle of laugh when i type "haha" or "lol". maybe itis just a word too frequently used that ive became lazy to use it when i realli am it.

kay...im getting naggy....sorry...
realli wanna continue..
realli wanna stay awake the whole night typing and rambling off
realli wanna, full stop.

sigh....forgot bout the release of the results 3 times, got reminded bout it for 3 torturing times...
tot i could have walked thru this with no worries
impossible.

worries of the mission*i jsut went down and made a call to confess the rationale of the mission and wish him gd luck for the exams, but still keeping our identities a secret...didnt wanna keep him worried of those "damn" prank caller. also, im feeling guilty. im ready to get my retribution :(*

worries of the results*actually, wads there to worry? i dun mind gg to any other jcs since i'm nt having a superbly great time at sajc---or rather, im numb to the laughter and smiles that evinced on my scar, they are kindof contradicting to those of my heart.---*

worries of the friendship that once disappeared visually, which turned from v significant to peripheral to null*almost, even disappeared palpably*. undoubtedly, it has proved easy to float again. yet to take any any action to make it sink or make it real.

worries of having the burden to inform mum, ms ho, ms ho*ct*, etc...so many! sighx.....


today is my mum bdae...richard's too....
had dinner at lemongrass....bro wasnt there, pap wasnt there....

hope wt n pam n shu jun had fun crashing sajc :)
sure they've enjoyed the food, thou itis kindof costly....
played pool at the bukit timah plaza....
with my class pple and toot's class pple....
i was lousy today....all of it was off....
nevertheless, enjoyed playing pool....kindof waste of money, but, it allowed me to 4got bout the worries, but got reminded bout those again... :(
was drained out of energy by the end of the day....
syz's song!!tao2 wang2! can sing8shout* my lungs out... :p
woohoo!
end here....nothing more to say...
going to sch as usual. am determined.
nt going to cry, nt going to smile, nt going of rejoice, nt going to frown....
nt going to let negative emotion reign and rein me....
aint going to die if i fail eng and be the onli who failed lit in the entire sch....
am being pessimistic now...

in case that person intrude into my blog again...
neway.....
toots coming over soon!
lol
gotta be fun tml!
tonite!
lol
no fren ever slept over my hse, so fun!
woohoo!

anyway...today..
nothign much. nothing compared to e fun yesterday at njc.....
was kindof criticising sajc the whole day, either silently or out aloud....
hmm....
was a super hot day....so i chose to go for green club...super slack!
cleared up the mess at the hydroponic stuff*rotten roots....eeeww..*
and minghui din come! sigh....when i go for grn club, he doesnt come, when i dun asttend, he goes....
bleah..
anyway, today's grn club isnt that bad....got to noe leng sim better...sc rocks! lit rocks too!*hmm...*
and wan zhen*or isit ting?* neway....she is oso frm touch rugby! but she is quitting tt for grn club. she is j2.....
i think, now, i have none a bit of fear of j2s... :)
grn club ended super early...from bout 3 to 3.30 onli!
then scooted off for orchard to meet meryl smo and pam....
met up with thme at bout 4....
was sitting at the macs outside shaw....hahah...the chocolate waffle cone is nice! :)
then.....mesmerised over the models in mango mag....lol.....
wanted to go paradigm for pool where our mission began...wahahaha...
so fun!
.....one night stand.....
hmmm....
that guy was real pervert....aiyo....no medicine to cure liao...
i cldnt stop laughing...and they said tt i sounded rather serious!! w0w....i good at demanding stuff and pro at being so stubborn! :)
neway......
the mission is a secret! gonne write diary today while toot reign tis comp later....
lol.....
today is fun!
from harbourfront to orchard then to dhoby ghaut then to somerset then to dhoby ghaot.....
wow....
tuition is great too!
me n prisc with the j2s....none from sajc...
neway.....was nice! had a 5 min early dismissal :)

bleah....my hands still smell of bleach from the grn club :(
anyway...end here! :)

am still procrastinating....friends forever are friends, forever. i ll try my best to keep my word, ya?

just rmmbered bout some fun today....during maths lecture....richard was singing and humming...chinese songs!!! nice songs... :)
reminds me of huo cai tian tang....super nice, bei ning joined in too....
think jialin*kayu* got annoyed....
lol....
wanwei din come to sch tml...hope she comes to sch tml...my twin! :)
hmm....
thats it...think im rather impervious to those feelings of separation...

toot is here....
had a "revision" and a revised version of the mission....
veri funny...gonne write it all in diary.. :)
stopped procrastinating...
took the simplest way out...msging on msn...
no reply...
neway.....nvm...
gtg :)

so cliche, such a hackneyed phrase....
but realli do mean it sometimes....

~guilt-ridden.... :(
i dare not take action.
frightened of silence, of awkwardness, of disparaging character, of our differences that never exist once-upon-a-time.

phone may be a good device, but not good enuf. i dunno what is.

professed an absolute end to this eons ago. but itis impossible ya?

wad happen to britt?

njc has nice clean spacious areas
ladies(in sajc, we r ladies too)
gentlemen(in sajc, they are rascals! boys!)
tennis courts free for use
cheerful running tracks(bright red! cool!)
empty student lounge(sa's is always v packed)
lanes of tables all arnd e sch-->conducive for studying ya!(sa..no such thing!)
variety of food(sa onli have 7 stalls?)
tchers tt makes sense(sa:"4 dots", "if you want us to treat you like adults, u have to behave like one")

the lists goes on almost infinitly....except for the aircon-less environment, even the air conditioned library is rather stuffy....
too bad, i have no chance to go njc... :(

neway...went to play pool with pple in wt's class and with the company of pam....
and i lost to wt twice! we played twice! i lost twice! grr.....but, if the white ball din go in, and if the black one went into the correct hole, i could have rightfully won twice! :(
was great to look at the "professionals" play....
their brain were able to do quick calcutions, of which angle to hit, strength to apply, blah blah....and the ball jsut goes in effortlessly*seemingly*!


rather proud of myself for obtaining the confidence to move arnd the sch, and nt losing my way there... :D
wt! do u feel lousy now? *LC rocks!*
played tennis too....apparently, my right hand "spoilt"....energy drained away rapidly and the directions of the balls were really off! :(

anyway....
open arms is super nice....now i realise how great she sang during talentime....
:)
dunno bout the lyrics, but the tune is v touching....
gtg! alot of hmwk sia....

haha...4got bout mention bout tis in my blog bout today....
hmm...bout 20 out of 25 pple are here today....
onlie 12 went for the chem lecture, the other 8 pon la....yeah, pathetic...
anyway...
the chem lecture ended....
and we got real restless, talked quite abit...and almsot deciding to pon the double period gp tut all together...
but, eventually, we dragged ourselves to the classroom after few of the 8 pple called us...lol....
so...we left the audi bout 10 min after the bell went off.....
that means we were officially onli 5 mins late!dunno wads wrong with ms tan and ms d, who go incensed at our late arrival....
i would haf pon!
but..i shant spoil my good record.....
haha...
dunno if this is true or not, but we've been imagining and cooking up stories bout yanyi and kelvin, and tech chong....other guys arent the main character la....
lol.....
apologies if our story isnt based on any facts, but, our whole class agreed on this affair!


anyway....read smo's blog....she mentioned sth bout dreaming bout snakes rite?
haha...reminds me bout the "snake" at KAp
damn funny...
haha
me and wt were leading in the front*obviously, or else smo wont be called smo:P*
then someone this shoelace prompted me to shout "snake"!
lol....hahaha.....
it realli look like snake lo!
smo agreed too!
wahaha....
wt fell for it too! i guess pam oso believed....
wahahha..
sorry la...not my fault....at least im nice enuf to warn u pple bout the "potential danger"
lol....


trying to d/l the njc's talentime songs, but it isnt v successful...
onli managed open arms, here w/o u and how do i live.....i blieve i can fly and flying w/o wings are "basic" songs that one shld haf la.....nonetheless, they are songs of eternal life! sure to be appreciated for generations...
yeap yeap...thats it
gtg slp!
njc! here i come! :)

We, the member of Losers' Club,
Pledge ourselves to be eternity losers.
Regardless our face, height*wt!* or foes,
to build a (princely community)/(idiocratic society)
Based on our stupidity and simplicity
So as to achieve lousiness, segregation and regress for our club.

the previous post wasnt complete....got interrupted when my bro got home. was doubtful. bout the transition me. how ive changed towards my treatment to others....
bleah
dun care....
neway, crashign njc tml!! woohoo!
hope i wont get caught...
neway...now, im trying to d/l the song tt were performed in njc's limelight talentime!
:D
btw, the song "here without you" is super nice!
catchy chorus...woohoo!
onli if i have a mp3 player
gtg organise the numerous songs obtained through illicit means....lol


neway...today....touch rug training was cancelled.
sch ended at bout 3
went to ps....
watch sth sth translation...wasnt a "palatable"(cant think of other words la...dun care:P) movie....but, itis supposedly nominated for many awards.....those artistic type? no plebeians ll understand such sophisticated movies ya?
lol....
neway.....
dunno.....real excited for my beloved njc!
:D
my loyalty still lies with sajc la....but :)dunno....heehee....
cya!