finally everythign is done! :)
the butterfly thing is up, after posting the pic to save the pic into the comp, changing the colour from blue to pinkish-red, changing the glow, changing the size, changing the quality, switching the prog from photoshop to imageready, changing the format, changing the opaque-ness of it....
and finally figured where to put the link of the pic after so many attempts....
well well....thats all! :)
and to think of it....ive spent bout an hour doing the butterfly thing?
not worth it? hmm....nvm...thats all that im going to spend :)

hahah.....
finally solved the thing liao...
and finally got the stuff aligned... :)
soo....well done to me! :)

took 2 whole hours to pick a decent template...
and more time to cut and paste....had to do it twice, cuz somewhere went wrong....and yeap...im careless....
and...dunno wads wrong with the tagboard backgrd thing, dunno y isi still black, went to the tagboard webby, nuthign wrong there, nothing wrong with my template too! so...how to solve tt?
the links need a change of colour which will be seen in due course, maybe tml?
and....had to get the title back, cuz tis new template layout omitted the title...
did adjustments to the colours too....

so...the rationale of mentioning all those above is to make my 2 hours spent seem worthwhile... :) im a slow worker ya!

gonna upload a nice butterfly pic soon....stole it from another template....and the "sparks" tt pops when u click is oso stolen from another template....hmm.....
im not a professional burglar, so, yeap...thats it....
shall try to solve it still....

wanna revamp my blogsite......
kindof sick of it liao...
but the fuss bout copy-and-pasting the links and stuff might deter me...
but, since i have the time to waste before real sch term begins to burden me...i shld ya?

how i wish i have a real good digicam....sighx...dunno much bout the cam properties....but i wld love to learn those! :)
the mega pix stuff...the shutter...the iso....the lenses and stuff*i suck at physics, so...wad focal length fives u wad?*....the exposure time...the many functions of those stuff...
i may have the ambition, but i also do have the forgetful-ness.
how long will it take before i forget this thing? or how long will it re-occur again and fill me with ambition once again, or perhaps it ll be guilt which wld dominate.

forget those for now...
today, went to visit grandpa at sgh 52B. block 5, level 2, ward B.
realli hurts to see
realli hurts...
all those surging and overwhelming emotion were so tangible to me....
thou the memories were vague, thou the memories of him being lively, being a "dictator" of the 4 generations are abstract, what would really matter is him being there to remind us and to invisibly bond the whole family together.
ive nv seen a close relavtive leave for another haven. hope that would not happen anywhen near now....
but....prolonging his live, may pose as a torture to him, the victim suffering the gargantuan torture alone, bearing it all alone. but, it is also difficult for thers to accept. those who are conscious are the ones who suffers the most, right?
he, who is on the bed, oscillating between consciousness and unconsciousness, may not see the worries of others. this is an anology to a one-sided love. one being totally oblivion to another.

anyway,and also, fortunately, it is not for me to decide and not a cut deep enough for me to weep and spend hell days and nights worrying about.
up to you to percieve me as selfish, as one who ditches emotions so easily.

i choose to forget.

so it worked!!!
woohoo!
can finally type chi in blog...
wahahha....dun need to put in in jpeg format and upload and stuff liao..
but...can onli blog in chi using netscape...ie gives lotsa probs...
:D
kayx....今天....went to the nus open hse with wirus...
lol..
nuthing realli interesting there...
ruin all the fun impressions tt i had of nus...

the conventional aircraft design comp in sec 3. those fun stuff with wt meryl n britt.....the amazement of the ludicrous news tt we were qualified for the finals and stuff...and finally emerged as champs despite our battered and cheater-bug plane....
hahaa...
and the two rock climbing sessions i had..........
everytime i go nus, itis for sth fun....or perhaps, those were the onli few things that is fun bout nus...
neway....the campus is enormous, relative to sajc :P
saw quite a number of sajc peeps. and apparently, pple dont bother to brief u bout the ccas and stuff once they hear tt u are still in jc 1 this year.
yeah....they have grown up and grown out of the youthful age....they adopted adults' attitude where they onli welcome the imminnent potential students....

end here.....
feel like studying!! =x
but how to start? start with wad?
hmm.....love maths...?!
--yawnzz--

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"I don't want a toaster."
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as if.

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was i desparately wanting the sch term to end asap?
was i dreading everyday of school in sajc?
was i developing an aversion towards the culture?

they had all vanished within an instant. out of sight for the whole of today.
i thought i was awaiting for the demise of my stay in sajc.
i craved for it. it came.
i regret. had/has/still having qualms of "home"-sickness.

perhaps, ive made the right decision. so what? what can ameliorate my present state of remorse?

spent my last day along the drive-way into the school, walking through the foyer, sitting at the brick-ly moss-ly plaza, chatting with familiar faces, laughing at common topic, enjoying the entertaining elephant song before proceeding with slow pace for assembly, staring at the marvellous great art works on the pillars which are comparable to the seven wonders in the world!, standing impatiently infront of the cafe, listening to the scripture reading where i seldom gain knowledge or enlightenment from, the cheerful up and on sch song onli sung on mondays, hearing whye kiat high spirits tone of voice despite his changing moods, assembly in the hall every friday and sometimes being touched in heart, sometimes strolling to class and sometimes running for class depending on whose tutorials, presence of a twin*similar in looks, maybe. similar in the shade of mechanical pencil we use, affirmative.*, ms ho's enjoyable chi n civics lesson............the list continues....my energy is waste...--yawnzz--

today...after assembly, had to go to audi to listen to this england person lecture bout sth. dunno wads his purpose, but he did some interesting and intriguing experiments about voltage and lightnign stuff....
then...initially, the civics lesson was cancelled, but due to great demand, she succumbed for it. we love her so so much!! hahaha....played piano in the ava room. it was freezing cold, but my heart was warm. warmed by suppressed tears...
lol...exaggeration....hahaha..

btw! saw my eye candy for the last time today! last last time! at least i managed to see him once b4 teh term ends officially.

neway....went for chem tut....today, tc/wy's fren crashed sa again...his name is ederick? ive nv spoke a single word to him b4...he looks super aloof....lol
then...suppose to have double period chem lecture. but we*rich, huixian, w�* decided to go for our break which was eaten up by civics period...the mrs leow*chem tutor* caught us in the canteen, but we kindof bo chap her...continued with our food before entering the lecture halfway. luckily we didnt realli interrupt his lecture, he didnt stop his lecture for our grand entrance...heehee.....i wonder why huixian and w� were rather afraid of the abruput entrance that might cause distraction in the audi...wad so scary?lol...
neway....today passed rather quickly..
as usual...marshmallow! seemed super sweet today, with a palpable taste till now...--yes! exaggeration again!--
realli...what is so nice about a big packet of marshmallow? you will get real irritated if u pop one and another into ur mouth continuously....but, when you eat it with your frens, every single marshmallow has a unique taste, a special moment, an one and only purpose that interest and captivates you forever.

aye aye....get it? i may be selfish at times...but i regret!!lol....

so....physics follwed up after chem lect.....and then our day has ended! ended early at 12.50!
stood along the corridor along the hall*making a T with audi corridor* pondering, wandering, foraging through my mind for food. food that nourishes my mind, pulling it away from the abyss of lost.
to start a new circle of frens. a new group of trustable onez esp. itis realli a gruelling one!

sighx...
went for clementi thru 166.
past yy's hse.-the mahjiong session after the cny hols.
past ac area.-my almost-prospect sch...
past sp.-nyaa talk that forced us to wear blazers. the solar car comp with francine and wt.
and stopped at somewhere arnd clementi. walked to the hawker centre nearby. shared some food. proceeded for the pool place near the stadium area.
played pool. yeap.
pple who were present:ederick, qiyang, kel, rich, ronald, kahhong, yidian, kaichun, w�, huixian and me!!

left clementi area at bout ten past 5. took train with yidian and kahhong. yidian alighted at outram. and i was left there tolerating that air of arrogance. i alighted at dhoby ghaut.was bout 6.
met up with meryl fel and jeanette b4 going for edna's hse...
pastorhcard-the many outings...
pastscgs-love ya!
pastnjc-hmm...talentime...i wanna go there to. i realli wanna?
pastKAP-tt day with pam smo n wt, wanting to play pool but ended up at macs...and the many pool sessions there...fun :)
pastthe turn into bukit timah hill-the sch outing for bukit timah hill. with ms goh!! wld love to go there again.
pastthe road that brigns us to jin ting's hse. sec 2 hallowen.with britt meryl n jin ting....was fun. was dark thou.
dinner was rather X...neway...was fun! the air con was super cold, reminds me of pika-chu!*mr chu...hahaha....*his habit of turnign on the aircon before he can teach.
me and meryl hid under the tabel, which was a cosy and warm shelter :)
chat chat chat...yakyakyak....yeap yeap.

left at bout 10?took 171 all e way to newton. could have taken 54 back myself...but my mum!! sighx, nvm. doesnt realli matter neway. listened to her "great" advice of putting sajc at 3rd choice...doesnt matter if another minor mistake is committed again. my negligence? my nonchalance perhaps....
having difficulty typing now....
ying yue re ji has supposedly be scheduled to 12 midnight...hmm.....so late!!
end here....suffocating in the enclosed room with shut windows....lol....

wrote diary yesterday, so theres nothing much to "report" about..
just wanna add this short rambling tt prompted me to record it down when i was in mrt yesterday, on my way hoem from airport....

"stting singly on the infinite rows of cold incandescent, luminous seats, as the ubiquitous train speeds through the tunnel, chilly air bites into my flesh, threatening to engulf it in its frost. This is where its destination is, to run through the city's every alcove. Bringing selfish convenience yet deleterious effects of globalistion...."

got interrupted by the surge of homo sapiens, chasing away any ramblings spurred by boredom...
yeah, rambling habits...

reading those entries ive posted since 01jan04....
it does trigger much memories...even though ive onli manage to skim thru several days of posts,ending at a date of 19jan04....it isnt enuf for me to recall every single bit of it. wasnt explicit enuf....
the odac orientation.i rmmber tt itis realli fun. the sane insanity that paralysed me...lol...
and all the fun spotting my eye candy*today is the day tt i meet him alot of times...:)* saw him in the morn in the canteen...saw him at the 2nd level while my class was proceeding for B32 for gp. saw him after gp at the mid level of staff rm and hod room. saw him for the third time after econs lect while he was proceeding for the same lt for bio lect. thats all :) so, it was at least 3 times! :)
sigh...i realli will miss sajc!!
realised tt all my blog since the beginning of the year is all revolving sch: my fears. my effort to avoid. dreading. awaiting. desiring. demanding. wanting.....and fun! :)
maybe, if you realli do keep a jotbook, diary, fotoalbum, or sth tt records ur adventures of the day, u ll feel the same. read wad u wrote. esp sth tt u were fond of, and is in the verge of losing it or has already lost it. the impact is just as great and just as violent, as cruel, as merciless, as tremendous, as tormenting, as evoking, as sweet, as elating, as those in "butterfly effect". agree?

wah.....i was super duper blur jsut now!!!
tot my fren was kelvin...
haha...my eye super cock! lol...
so funny....hahahah....

din write diary since ages....wont do so today too...
the diary box is presently empty...
bought the big box from ikea....
the box might be a waste cuz of the phobia inflicted in me fromt eh movie "butterfly effect"...
probably, in the context of the movie, going back to the past and change the situation either for worse or for better might nt be sth as bad. might be just bcuz of the way the director broguht it across....was kindof bloody and horrifying petrifying blah blah....

sighx...
sch is coming to an end soon...
dreading yet awaiting for it to end....
i will miss sajc. realli realli much....
i tot i wouldnt...
even mr chew oso said tt of clara ng, ren2 wang3 gao1 chu4 pa2....
it might not be the best choice to go to "better" jcs, and the "better" jcs might not be more gao1 than sajc.
after maths, was in the student centre during the break before proceeding for econs...
was sitting at the couch outside photocopy room....
looking thru the magazines searching for syz....was in vain thou...
but, i feel real bonded to my classmates....
how we (beining, shuhui, wanwei, huixian) snugged together in the small couch in the cold weather....
ok, maybe it wasnt tt cold.....but it warmed my heart...realli....

sigh...wouldnt have the chance to complain of the expensive food when i move for another sch....
wont have the chance to remonstrate of teh dilapidated sch, of the tchers....
sighx....act, me chew is nice!!1 :)
but somehow, i was exhilarated when his double period lecture was over.....didnt noe tt his lectures is the reason for my lack of smile and laughter in the earlier part of the day, till i realli felt relax and burden-less after his lect.
lol....
ll ms miss ho lots...
and the dreads of touch rug, and contemplating if green club is a good substitute....
lol....
shall go for either green club or touch rug tml...depending if it rains....preferably touch rug....gonna miss the peeps....
and....i can get to see sajc peeps for kayaking on 21 and 28! provided tt i rmmber to pay the $$....lol....

went to ikea with rich, kel-hong-, bei�, huishu....stroll around teh labyrinth....
lol....
was a long long way before we got out of the maze....
exited the place at bout 6? stood otuside the bistro for ice-cream, in the case of me n huishu, and hotdog, in the case of rich and beining.....
and one thing funny tt i jsut recalled....
during today's first break, kelvin's food got pecked by crow!! the big plate of food*think he requested for additional rice* had gone to waste! lol....that plate looks bout at least 2.5 bucks....haha....reminds me of the beheaded pigeon in sc, and the coo-ing of kenniese....hahaha.....disgusting!! but funny! :)

dun wish tt anymore sajc peeps discover my blog....no secrets here anyway....
:)
hope it rains tonite! :)
and, hope to train in the rain for touch rug tml!
but, jiahui's sunny doll will counter my hopes, nullifying it ya?

so angelfire was working fine...
here itis :)

anyway...the song is stopy crying your heart out by oasis....
yy sending me now :)

anyway...the movie is good...as in the director's skills...made the movie v captivating....
though the storyline is kind of similar to one local movie tt ive watched b4, the settings and lang is diff which made this movie a greater impact...and to watch this movie on this day, made it more relevant than when i watched tt local movie years ago...
this movie was bout the recurrence of one's life, it converts from one to another....all derived from a diary or a video clip....
real scary....
reminds me bout my dreams....they seem to happen simultaneously...itis just the uncanny resemblance, my dreams arent that traumatising....but itis just freaky....
tot ive got lots to blog bout that movie...alot of expletives inside thou....but the content and purpose is well expressed thru that....

neway...today is smo's bdae!
:)
is a super rainy day today.....
made a "cake" out of the orange cake as the base, then a layer of marshmallows and with chocolate fudge as the top later and mini m&ms as the words....
made the kitchen super messy...or as least, the table was....but managed to finish it all in record time! :)
still had to walk to ntuc to buy the materials....struggled with the slippery ground and the slopes...
lol
hope smo likes it :)
and the presents too!
met up with smo pam and wt at scotts at bout 6.....they were in sc uni! lol....perhaps, they might be mistaken as sec1 students...wahahha
ate the super sweet "cake" in the scarcely populated food court....then we had our dinner..
then went to lido for a movie which is butterfly effect, which wt almost violently objected, but her objection was overruled....lol...cuz smo din want to watch dirty dancing rite? or sth like dat la...

anyway...wt eventually agreed that butterfly effect was worth watching....
the file transfer just ended....sound quite nice :)
and if u watched butterfly effect before, and is given teh chance to watch it again. will u?
i might not. itis indisputable tt itis a good movie*better than lost in translation which lil pple has the talent to comprehend the art of it*....but.....itis scary! it haunts u!!!
imagine if u haf those "ability" of re-living ur past in so many versions, each making so many regrets so many mistakes....
sighx....or, if u dream about stuff that is similar....even if they are jsut repetition, they are harmless physically, they have deleterious to mental state!!

anyway....watch the modern version of romeo and juliet, yes shakepeare! love ya! :x tt movie starred leonardo.....
lol.....
tot ive watched it before..
cant really catch the english of their...the "thee" the "sword" when they were refering to guns in the context of the movie...
real funny....
wasnt a bloody tragedy as great as julius caesar....din get to finish watching it anyway.....
hope to read the romeo and juliet text thou....

meryl might be crashign tml... so there! :)
sweet dreams to me....hmm....and to the peeps who watched butterfly effects....
hope it doesnt haunt my dreams.....

and why did they begin with a prologue that is sth like "a flutter of a butterfly can cause a typhoon half time around the world" how does it relate to the storyline? im lacking in analytical skills...anway....i like that quote! :)

hmm...wirus said tt the water was contaminated and resulted in his "super sick" "fever cough flu sore throat diarrhoea"....so serious ahx? then my bro how? :P
din noe tt clean water is so so impt....

neway....gonna starve myself....hp bills exceeded last month! sighx...
dunno when the sms and talk time start clocking.....but im certain tt it doesnt start in the beginning of e month....
sighx....the bills...still can cope la...hahaha...mum helped me pay first :) but i must pay her back thou she said tt i dun need....
lol....
pple seldom see me sms, but my sms will jsut exceed! lol....eg, compare me and wt....wt is always usign her hp....but i seem to be hp-less, i "barely" use it! :x but my sms counter exceed hers...bleah...
wanna change hp plan! >.<

just missed the syz song played on 933.....lol....
end here...somehow, feeling super nonplussed now sia...
dun feel like going to sch.... :(
guess if i have another of those crazy repetition dreams or one even more terrible, i'll jsut skip sch! :) or maybe i shall go invite myself to njc :)