today...
dun care. i jsut noe tt my tv show start le...
hahaha....
yah! my stupid bro, spoilt a roll of film!
he eih eih lai..sighx...so wasted la..
and 4 of my fotos are inside la!
though i dunno wad were the purpose of those 4 fotos...but i dont wanna waste them all! one film cost bout 4 or 5 bucks, plus the developing cost. bahx.

gonna retake chi next year le la.

yeap.
though i wont want to face the same consequences as i did last year.
fel, meryl, britt.
bah.

yeap...sth wrong w blogger yestday...server down or sth....
printer no ink, cant print it out. but i want it somewhere safe[which is definitely not in the hard disk itself].... yeah. dun bother to read!

sighx...

i wanna go work to earn my own money.

i wanna learn stuff to [i dunno the [purpose of this. just for the sake of knowing more stuff]

i wanna do volunteer work to [isit for the PEARLS? but i got the max pts for S liao.] [furthermore, this opportunity is just the usual one to raise funds. wad i want to do from these voluntary stuff is to interact with elderlies, with kids, with needies. not just to scratch money out of those who are willing to donate, and these pple who r willing to donate are most prolly those who face financial difficulties themselves but have the heart to help]

and the last one is to do sth bout my screwed up studies, which is my very last priority[when it shld not. else, wads the purpose of getting into a jc?]

bah.
i'm really stuck.

reading wad ive typed.
i seemed to be the very least keen on doing the volunteer stuff.
but, im pulled towards it.
what for subject myself to such senseless superficial kind acts!

tell me waht to do.
maybe the last option, and the final choice is to slack. to do the craft stuff tt i love doing.

bah. maybe itis just me.
before promos. i worry bout not having sufficient time to study...
during promos. i worry bout forgeting everything tt i studied...
after promos. i worry bout the results...
after getting back e results. i worry about not able to get promoted...seriously, i dun mind taking 3 subjs. i hate econs to the core!
before sch hols reach. i worry about op, about silence dominating me when it is my turn to speak...
after sch hols commences. i worry bout my bro's exam [lol]. i worry bout what im worrying now...

yeap. paranoid me. time for me to rejoice. for my insanity.

bah.


[edit 10.10pm]

hahaha...my bro damn funny sia.
i wasted 3 sms on nagging him.
then he said, "haha... so nice ah... hahaha... 3 only big ah... i return u lor... haha... nah..."
lol...he 1000 sms la. sure wont exceed de. poor me...shldnt reply him le.
lol...

been qutie some time i last blogged. hahah...2 days nia...
neway...
i finish with that project!
as in the skeleton of it is done!
whee!!
finally!
was so difficult trying to make a cube out of satay stick and thread. and u have to make sure they maintain a rigid structure! they msut must must, or else the stars are going to collapse
hahaha...
shall take some fotos of it and put it here some time later :)
hahaha..
kindof got inspired by px and jm, by their stars stars and more stars...
hahaha...i still think straw stars are nicer :) paper straws are sso fragile. smash it and thats it.
yeapp...
tml is gp exam!!
sighx...hope bro does well in this one...
shall go nag him later....hahaha..esp the AQ and stuff....
thats the opportunity cost for him, for having such a nice caring considerate sis :D
yeap...
as for the hol hmwk...sighx...
needa hand up physics correction on fri or sth?
heck care.
i cant do physics le la....
bah....gonna retake chi next year. no mood to study chi now...
yeappie. as always, when given many chances, i'll only cherish the last.
lol...
ive grandma-d enuf...cya :)

finally used the film picker successfully!
wahahaha...
was blingdly trying and trying, w/o knowing the mechanism behind it.
and i was actually thingy, the more u turn that knob thingy, the more will the film retract and it ll eventually becomes impossible to get it out!
hahaha..
but....got kindof fed up, started stoning..
and yes! i was finally to THINK.
hahaha...
yeappie.
that stupid film is finally out, i cant possibly bring it to print if i cant get the film out cuz ive only used 4 fotos!

yeap...enuf of film.
dunno how many millions times i have to pronounce the word "film", the word "censorship"...
yeappie.
op is over.
somehow, i think i ll miss pw.
though, i dun really do much in the group la...
i just like those times tt we have to stay back late in sch for pw. yeap, my definition of late is diff from those mr pple la.
so, yeap.
am already starting to miss pw.

sighx...
as for my "project"
i have no idea how to fix the sides together.
was thinking of using a thick metal wire so that the whole thing wont be so vulnerable, wont warp so easily. but, the wire has sharp edges.
and...was thinking of using straw. but i dun have transparent straws at home :(
then...want to use wood. this shld be the material most suitable, but i can find wood at home...maybe wooden chopsticks? hmmm...
and one more way is to use ppr....and use the tape tt i jsut bought. hahaha..that tape is so cool la....lol...
anymore options? er....none.

yeap...and cant imagine tt my examiner is jamie tan!!!
JT. bahx.
i have gotten used to her face, her expression and her voice.
bah. and her that doubtful look on her face just throws u off and robs u of ur "confidence".
actually, i have no reason to be nervous.
was in front of a tcher who is so ah beng*wong tze yang* and a tcher that i heck care*JT*...so...i dunno wad i was doing...
bah. all over. yeap, must tell thyself to shut up.
lol....
she even gave me a one dollar "tips".
hahaha....is that for the service charge for doing the photog banner?

been doing some retarded rehearsal for the op.
bah.
screwed up the last one...guess im just tired >.<

sighx...

newya...syz's songs still rocks.
can start memorising the lyrics whole heartedly tml..
hahah...im nuts la...she
but, her songs in this cd seems to be sing-able....hahaha...not as diffcult as those songs in her previous albums...

yeap...
sis got me a watch...haha..for bdae present...
and...er..i nv get her anything this year?
i never know wad they want.
this of great value, which is sth tt is expensive...my budgt ll never reach a thousand la, unable to reach her high standards.
heh.
and my bro...
aiyo..he and his dog.
mum and dad dun allow us to keep.
wad to do?
wanna move out?
hahaha....still harping on my ideal future :)
end here....shall go sleep.

tentatively s72 outing a on 14 nov. must rmmber to pass the msg around>.<

sighx...
syz's songs really nice!! cant bear to turn off the comp.
hahaha...
have to use that stupid vcd player to play syz's cd, or else i'll have no other devices to satisfy my greed/wants...hope it doesnt konk out on me...
hahah....
op op op op op op op op op op op
itis gonna be over in like less than 12 hours time!
whee!!!!!

somehow, after listening to syz's album...it gets better and better.
and somehow, it just evokes a feeling of being liberated, and being independent....
hahaha...
weird...
but it'll be wonderful if i can move out, rent a small place *must be clean* and just be there. away from my parents...
guess tt place wldnt be found in spore...not under such stressful conditions in spore.
and i ll just need a salary which allows me to pay the rent and buy the groceries and abit for entertainment stuff. waitress, salesgirl*shop selling chocolate or candies*, anything similar will do :)
groceries packed in paper bag.
cemented pavement, 2 or 3 storey shophouses...how bout treehouse? :)
and a room that i paint it myself.
a cat lazing around in the room. a white one, with blue eyes. a brown cat ll do too.
a computer*maybe 100gig for me to store my pics*, a gig of RAM, with good speakers, and maybe 18inch lcd screen*around tt size la*...and internet access isnt necessary, im not a good host to worms...
a nice neighbourhood for me to jog in e morn. with only a few cars roaming the streets in the morn, and other avid joggers...
a pool nearby. that is not crowded.
tennis courts ll be great too! :)
non sheltered pavement to get me drenched on rainy days*??*...
a society that does not ostracise low-income pple, pple who just like to laze around, having ambitions not to be top-earners but just be happy.
i will be happy.
sighx...all seem so impossible...
maybe just too much of stoning when listening to the songs, which are really really v nice! >.<
and i din include friends in the above description...hahaha...maybe they dun really come into my life. just some friendly acquaintances ll do i guess. esp having some amiable colleagues... :)
kiess...i much stop day dreaming....

hafta get back to op again...
still exceeding by bout 15secs....
bah. hope all the stuff in my brain now wont disappear by tml.
then...
i can go get the transparency then continue with that "project", which is much simpler and relaxing than project work.
heh.

yeappie. i think i can slack thru this hols...
wheee....very frustrated with the busy schedule of jc.
though im sure mine isnt as busy as other pple, but...i really wanna slack.