blah...feel so insecure now >.<
i may be overjoyed due to unexpected deals tt ive clinched, or rather, it shld all be credited to alvin.
and...two of the deals are existing customers!!
and if they launch a complain on me....im so dead.

however, all i needa do is to stop thinking about it!
stop having illusions!!!
and worse, expectations of myself.
cant get that into my head!! help!! >.<

and i really hope they dun call me or sms me or kajiao me in my dreams until installation is over!
pls pls pls...


on a lighter note...
sth real funny happened.
okay...maybe itis embarassing too.
neway...
was at jurong west yesterday...
ya...then...
this guy opened the door, he was half naked la(itis the top part nia, duhz)
then he acted like so paiseh and hid himself behind the door, only allowing his head to pop out to speak!
wah...so pai seh la!
hahaha...wanted to laugh liao lo! but must control rite! that result in me stuttering....
wah....two words to describe that: PAI SEH!
hahaha...and guess wad. i think im more fluent in my madarin now! and...maybe i would have done a better job for op now if im given another try. just pia, just let the words run out of ur mouth instead of being so conscious and too careful of wad to say which made me speak the wrong things anyway...

[edit 5dec04 11.59am]
btw..that guy is quite good looking.
lol...
shld b a few yrs older than me de...

bah.
methinks tt i shld remain stuck in this part of being educated and under parental sponsorship.
n...i still cant rmmber stuff the way they are...
they just trickle outta my brain!
so...

i lied to my mum :) sth minor only

glad to be going for training tml neway.

found my cousin's blog...
he shld be condemned la!!
this is wad he wrote...
"its the 4th day. and it is not going to be any more exciting than what it already is.. i have taken and used all that i am given and tomorrow i am grounded.."i have to stay" haha..okok im sure you guys have NO idea as to what im saying..haizz... nvm it doesn't matter..its not important.. there is this rule though: that i cannot cut my hair or do anything to it. in 49 days...i can't dye it back too. im screwed..will school allow it?"

okay..
nothing wrong to dye his hair
nothing wrong to feel so screwed up for not being able to dye his hair back in time due to the traditions and stuff.
but...itis tt he is not at all sad nor dejected...
pardon me, hez only a year younger than me.
im sure my younger cousins are making more effort to accompany grandpa till the last. and .... nvm.

okay...maybe im more of the conservative type...
hez ur kin! n u r not at all affected??
i still wanna indulge in the 饮水思源 mentally, reasonably.
y would u call a homo sapien a human when he has no humanes?
bah.

i really hope no one is reading this...

wow.
today has been a fun day!
maybe itis just my part of getting so excited...and getting so illusionary...
hahaha...
but i cant see the excitement on others' faces
hahah..
neway...
cant wait for tml to come!
and for friday to come too!
i wanna go shoot too!
whee...
this shall remain an unspoken event till it becomes more fun and more more interesting! if not, it shall just be dumped to silent.
ahaha...
kies....cant wait!! >.<

yes!
im happy!
:)

neway...the fotos taken on...sat? or was it sun, when wt fluff n relic was doing MAD, and i roaming arnd taking fotos...they din turn out good. but better than wad i expected. hmm....
colours are somehow disgusting....

neway....im happy! :)


[8:32]
guess wad just happened...
another fine and good day ruined.
by who?
other than them, who else?
i wanna move out of this house right now la!
of course, they wont be supportive of that AGAIn.
AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN!
bahx.
ask them to jsut SHUT UP and stop hindering me.
good riddance man!

however, my sis is kindof useful at last.
bah.

ears stuffed with white synthetic material - melanie C [Northern Star]
metallic red spectacles resting on the nose bridge.
fringe obeying gravity, drooping across the face.
intended to take a nap to supplement the 5 hours of sleep that morning.
handphone was taciturn.
it cracked the silence to transmit an unpleasant message.