this song "我也很爱他" is clinging to my brain again!
watch the mtv on channel 51 tis morn...
then after tt, i came online...
then ed asked me for that song~
hahaha...
so funny la!
she watched the same mtv too!
and i think we watched it at the same time!
so cool rite!


neway....
wads new for today?
nothing?
an additional org on the MAD's motivators' list...
er...
and only 3 pple doing motivator...
which means tt that two managers stared at us for a super long time.
they are our dear daryl and anthony.
bah...i jsut get very stressed up when a "superior" watches me...
ie, when daryl n anthony arnd watching us ask pple. so wad if their stoning, itis their presence tt is over bearing. and when kelvin is nearby listening to me talk to customer!
bah!
still troubled over tt family who signed 4 deals.
picked up the sis's call this aft.
had a miss call after tt, hope it wasnt hers.
bah. stupid hp of mine...no caller id.


so...this aft.
signed up the moblog...
really hope theres no charges...

so..
i have to squeeze tuition, air rifle sessions in between my working days...which is impossible to!
bah....I'm dead!
i dun wanna take off days esp when my sales are still over the cliff...dangerous lo....
sighx....
but! at least, now i dun need to help my bro wash his army clothes when my mum goes away in a few days time!
ahahha....
and...i really hope to gather some money to supplement the paltry amount of money that i can save from my weekly allowance.
itis so stupid la....
i can earn like 3 weeks of my allowance in a day la...
bah....
how tempting it is to quit school...

i should stop rambling...
and really do sth.
so...
im getting my maths tys tml.
and then i can start work!
hahaha...
maybe im just lazy just procrastinating....just stubborn.
i insisted to do maths tys questions before i proceed to any, ANY holiday hmwk.
"that is such a dumb action", you may claim.
but i hope this delay and further delaying can motivate me to really start work soon and do well for A's next year.
as for now, sales comes first.
may not even have time for hmwk sia... sigh....
stressful stressful! :(
but...my job now...actually allows me to excercise everyday..
so, thats sth great isnt it!
endorphins and whatsoever...rejoice? go die. :)
maybe i'll be able to pick up some more expletives foul words and the hokkien lang after this long menial work?
yeap...
tembling upon the slightest movement of my mobile phone...a sms just came in. lets pray that itis not from my customers.
and...dear frens of mine, pls try NOT to sms me in this period of time, to save my brain cells from reaching termination so soon, and...less white hair if there is...
sighx...i think im getting v competitive in terms of sales.
im greedy! too greedy! :(
earning money to buy nice xmas presents for family. or at least, presents that cost quite a bit. but...i began to think...if i earn more than like 1k, i will save it up. since i have lil savings la...and 1k is quite a significant amount to the mintue amount tt i have in my bank now...
ya...im a fishmonger? maybe...

winamp playing teh song by SENS.
and im only able to locate 2 songs by sens in this pc...
hmm....v nice tune lo...v peaceful...dun tok to me bout dunno wad chordes, wad wad major minor...half notes...i have no idea la...
hmm...isit eug used to have SENS cd?
dunno la...dunno who d/led tt two songs oso....

ya...thinking bout it...
i think i wont join guitar ensemble anymore...hahaa....
just rmmbered that the "rule" of weekend being free days...
all cca will be squeezed to weekdays rite!
sighx...
oh ya! i cna use that to "lure" my customers too!
bout them having more time to enjoy next year...so better sign up now..
and xmas coming soon...better get scv to entertain their guests...
ahahha...wad crap la...

oh ya!
poor relic lo!
signed up for singtel 512kbps for like 56bucks!?!? and hez only getting a free wireless modem and the contract is for 2 years.
and hez still using a pentium 2.
and guess wad starhub is doing!
we are offering an internet connection of 3000kbps at 79.80 (most pple actually only needa pay bout 40+ nor 50 bucks for this)and they will get a free compaq PC! performance of a pentium 4. processor speed is 2.53GHz...and free speakers w it...monitor screen of 15 inch....40GB memory space.
"what a good deal~", you may exclaim.
HA.
too bad for most....for u r bonded with dunno dunno wad contract...and even if u r "bond-free" (how about being "born-free" were u ever? make ur own choice? never?) u wont wanna sign up w me rite? u may doubt me. doubt bout the truth that spills over my lips.
doubt me again? sign up with starhub online then.
let them take months to serve u, while we take only a week, and gives u definite response, affirmations. neglect our service.
ignore the fact that i need some sleep. okay, i have a habit of slping la. 10.30am is alright for u, but not for me? and, YOU r not able to sign up w me...cuz u already have a contract...

wads wrong with geylang?
they have nice food there!
forget botu those prostitutes and transvesites and homosexuals and what-have-you-got.
the hakka clan is there! though i have yet to pick up the lang, im proud to be a hakka! :) hear me?! this hakka here takes pride in her roots. really hope to visit the "homeland" some day, one day.

ya...maybe im really not in a good mood today.
wad will brighten up ur day when worries bombards ur brain, tears ur soul, and is exacerbated by the fatigue.

blah...feel so insecure now >.<
i may be overjoyed due to unexpected deals tt ive clinched, or rather, it shld all be credited to alvin.
and...two of the deals are existing customers!!
and if they launch a complain on me....im so dead.

however, all i needa do is to stop thinking about it!
stop having illusions!!!
and worse, expectations of myself.
cant get that into my head!! help!! >.<

and i really hope they dun call me or sms me or kajiao me in my dreams until installation is over!
pls pls pls...


on a lighter note...
sth real funny happened.
okay...maybe itis embarassing too.
neway...
was at jurong west yesterday...
ya...then...
this guy opened the door, he was half naked la(itis the top part nia, duhz)
then he acted like so paiseh and hid himself behind the door, only allowing his head to pop out to speak!
wah...so pai seh la!
hahaha...wanted to laugh liao lo! but must control rite! that result in me stuttering....
wah....two words to describe that: PAI SEH!
hahaha...and guess wad. i think im more fluent in my madarin now! and...maybe i would have done a better job for op now if im given another try. just pia, just let the words run out of ur mouth instead of being so conscious and too careful of wad to say which made me speak the wrong things anyway...

[edit 5dec04 11.59am]
btw..that guy is quite good looking.
lol...
shld b a few yrs older than me de...

bah.
methinks tt i shld remain stuck in this part of being educated and under parental sponsorship.
n...i still cant rmmber stuff the way they are...
they just trickle outta my brain!
so...

i lied to my mum :) sth minor only

glad to be going for training tml neway.

found my cousin's blog...
he shld be condemned la!!
this is wad he wrote...
"its the 4th day. and it is not going to be any more exciting than what it already is.. i have taken and used all that i am given and tomorrow i am grounded.."i have to stay" haha..okok im sure you guys have NO idea as to what im saying..haizz... nvm it doesn't matter..its not important.. there is this rule though: that i cannot cut my hair or do anything to it. in 49 days...i can't dye it back too. im screwed..will school allow it?"

okay..
nothing wrong to dye his hair
nothing wrong to feel so screwed up for not being able to dye his hair back in time due to the traditions and stuff.
but...itis tt he is not at all sad nor dejected...
pardon me, hez only a year younger than me.
im sure my younger cousins are making more effort to accompany grandpa till the last. and .... nvm.

okay...maybe im more of the conservative type...
hez ur kin! n u r not at all affected??
i still wanna indulge in the 饮水思源 mentally, reasonably.
y would u call a homo sapien a human when he has no humanes?
bah.

i really hope no one is reading this...

wow.
today has been a fun day!
maybe itis just my part of getting so excited...and getting so illusionary...
hahaha...
but i cant see the excitement on others' faces
hahah..
neway...
cant wait for tml to come!
and for friday to come too!
i wanna go shoot too!
whee...
this shall remain an unspoken event till it becomes more fun and more more interesting! if not, it shall just be dumped to silent.
ahaha...
kies....cant wait!! >.<

yes!
im happy!
:)

neway...the fotos taken on...sat? or was it sun, when wt fluff n relic was doing MAD, and i roaming arnd taking fotos...they din turn out good. but better than wad i expected. hmm....
colours are somehow disgusting....

neway....im happy! :)


[8:32]
guess wad just happened...
another fine and good day ruined.
by who?
other than them, who else?
i wanna move out of this house right now la!
of course, they wont be supportive of that AGAIn.
AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN!
bahx.
ask them to jsut SHUT UP and stop hindering me.
good riddance man!

however, my sis is kindof useful at last.
bah.

ears stuffed with white synthetic material - melanie C [Northern Star]
metallic red spectacles resting on the nose bridge.
fringe obeying gravity, drooping across the face.
intended to take a nap to supplement the 5 hours of sleep that morning.
handphone was taciturn.
it cracked the silence to transmit an unpleasant message.